SOMEOME
She sat, back straight
against the cold, brick wall. Her fingernails dug into the cement, palms grounded.
Her already chipped, garish red nail polish made pink lines on the crumbling
sidewalk as her fingers quaked. A silver chain charm bracelet with the
signature Tiffany heart, the only charm, made soft taps on the ground as her
body tremored. Her soft brunette, barrel rolled curls were drawn half up;
revealing her tear stained, make up blurred face. Despite the fact that there
was a light dusting of snow on the ground, she wore a sleeveless, black dress.
The A-line lay in a pool in her lap, barricaded in by her bent knees. She was
only seventeen, I knew that.
I was sitting in
my beat up Ford F-150 in the St. Barnabas Catholic Church parking lot, hands
still on the steering wheel, even though I’d been there ten minutes already. I
was in my black suit, dark grey collared dress shirt and brown oxfords. I
should have already been in the church; I was late already, but I couldn’t
bring myself to get out of the truck. I knew I’d have to pass her; knew I’d
have to say something, I couldn’t just walk by. It wasn’t just that though, I
was strangely mesmerized by her. She sat there, in the frigid air, crying over
the death of her junkie mother who hadn’t given a shit about her. Why did
people do that? I knew there wasn’t a chance in hell her mom would be acting
the same way if the tables were turned, and yet, here Maia was.
But I realized the
answer, as I sat there hands gripping the steering wheel, palms sweating. She didn’t
have anyone else. Even the pathetic shell of a mom she had a week ago wasn’t there
anymore. I released the wheel and, without taking time to process my thoughts,
opened the truck’s door. She didn’t look up when the door slammed shut; still in
her desperately alone world. The air was colder than I had guessed and I shrugged
my shoulders up against the biting wind. I sat down on the severely cracked
sidewalk beside her, her head moving up a fractional amount, eyes darting
sideways at me. As she looked at me, I saw some of the anguish in her eyes
replaced with exhaustion, so I stayed sitting.
I don’t know how
she tells the story, but that’s the only part of the funeral I remember anymore.
Love from Pullman,
The Blonde and the Bullshit
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